'One of my high school best friends is gay. It was a good experience, and I wouldn't change anything.' I don't think it defined my sexuality, because I still identify as straight. 'Looking back, I have no regrets about any of it. I eventually reciprocated, but we never did anything aside from oral or masturbation. We ended up doing things the rest of the time I lived with him. He ended up giving me a blowjob, and it was completely mind-blowing.

He told me to relax, and I was pretty horny anyways. He started getting handsy, and I immediately knew where this was going. My roommate ended up stumbling into my room and landed on my bed. 'Everyone ended up leaving, and I went to my room to wind down. 'One night, we had a small party at our place, with people coming and going all night. I myself was known for sleeping around, and I was in an on-and-off relationship, but never considered myself gay. Everyone was pretty sure he was gay, but none of that mattered.

I kind of sensed that he was attracted to me, but I never paid any mind to it. 'During my second semester in college, I ended up moving out of the dorms and into the apartment of a friend I had from a fraternity I was in. He seemed nice enough, but I had my moment of experimentation and realized it wasn't what I was into.' I was just over it at this point - told him I was sorry but I needed to go, and bailed quickly. He was really excited to blow me, but I wasn't the least bit hard and nothing he was doing was making it happen. 'After a few minutes he wanted to switch and go down on me, that's when everything sort of hit.

We got to his house and I got back to sucking his dick on his couch, and he got my shorts off and rubbed my dick some while I blew him. I blew him for a few minutes in his car and then we decided I'd jump in my car and follow him back to his place just a few minutes away. He took it out and I started giving him a hand job, which lasted about a minute before I just went for it and started blowing him. We pulled up beside my car and he gave a last shot at keeping things going and asked if I just wanted to try holding his dick, and I agreed. We went for a short drive and talked for a few minutes and I started backing out so he took me back to my car. 'So after a few months of regularly getting off to gay porn I decided to seek out an opportunity to experiment and met with a guy in a parking lot of a local store. I have never checked out or noticed another man in a real-life situation, but I can completely fantasize about it if I'm watching gay porn. The thing is, outside of watching porn, I don't find men attractive at all.

I don't really know how or why I started, but I began watching and getting off to gay porn. 'I was in a weird place after a messy breakup with a long-term girlfriend when I was about 24.

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